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MY FRIENDS ARE DOCTORS

We started medical school together, but they intercalated (took a year out for other things), meaning that we didn’t finish at the same time.

Anyway, they got their finals results yesterday, and they all passed! COVID-19 chaos meant that they got results earlier than they were supposed to, but at least it meant less waiting around for them to come.

I FEEL SO PROUD- left in the middle of a ward round to call them straight away when I found out lol (my Consultant wasn’t very impressed haha, but had to be done!)

Coming to a hospital near you…

WE THANK GOD.

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The Batty Shaw Med Chi Prize

This is an annual prize awarded to a final year medical student who has made an outstanding contribution to life at the medical school and the university, and this year I was one of the recipients of it.

I received the email informing me of my eligilibity for it last month, and I was completely blown away at the news that I had been nominated by a number of people across the med school. Ofcourse in classic Tai fashion, I cried.

I was told at the follow-up interview that the names of my nominees would remain anonymous, which I understood but was a bit disappointed by, because I wanted the chance to personally thank everyone who took the time out to send in a nomination for me. So that’s why I’m writing this, on the off chance that one of them might see it.

The reason that this award means so much is because it is recognition for just being, well, me. I have never been a top decile medical student or even anywhere near that, as I realised quite early on in med school that I was not like one of my more academic peers. At first that used to get to me, but over time I understood that it’s not healthy to compare yourself to others, and that the bottom students in medical school will still be doctors.

So I kept working to the best of my ability, but also committed myself to my hobbies and extracurricular activities outside medicine. Over the years I got a lot of shady comments from medics who were openly critical about me “doing so much,” with even shadier comments implying that I would do better in exams if I just focused on med. Ouch. Maybe they were right, but I have always believed that there is more to life than medicine- this degree does not define me.

Anyway, I persisted, and managed to get to the end of final year successfully (Thank God!!!)

I have never expected any awards or fanfare about the stuff I do, because ofcourse that’s not why I do them, so being nominated for the Batty Shaw Prize really surprised and moved me, because it’s a prize that celebrates non academic students.

I honestly didn’t think I would win, and it’s a cliché, yes, but being up for it was truly an honour, and being one of the recipients of the award this year is definitely my proudest accomplishment of medical school – I am so SO grateful.

So to anyone who nominated me, thank you.

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I Am No Longer A Medical Student

Internal elective ended about two weeks ago, so I am officially all done with medical school now. 6 years, done just like that. I don’t think it’s really sunk in yet, you know.

My last three weeks with the gastroenterology team were really fun. My days consisted of more of the same – ward rounds, writing in the notes and then doing jobs. I got to practise more venepuncture and blood cultures, which will come in handy for when I start work in August, but I am still not 100% confident with my cannulas…

I swapped over to the luminal sub team in my last two weeks, so that was pretty useful  recap of Crohn’s and Ulcerative Colitis, and how they are managed. I got more opportunities to review patients on my own, and it was still quite nerve-wracking but it wasn’t too bad overall!

My final day of placement as a medical student was spent getting signed off by my supervisor, and taking one last walk through the hospital. It was at the same hospital that I had my first secondary care placement in module 1, so finishing module 15 there was a nice way of coming full circle.

SO, what will become of this blog? I haven’t decided yet. It was meant to “chronicle my road to becoming a doctor and everything else along the way,” which I guess I’ve done, but should I continue with life as a junior doctor? We shall see.

But until I make a decision, I just want to say a massive thank you to anyone who has been following this blog over the last six years. I didn’t expect anyone outside my family to read this, and I don’t share my posts anywhere else, so to have had thousands of views and readers from over 70 different countries has been quite something. I really appreciate it.

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Internal Elective (Module 15) – Weeks 1 to 3

One of the doctors on the ward told me that she loves how much I smile, and asked if I have noticed that I have a bit of a bounce in my step when I walk around. That pretty much sums up my post finals/passing medical school state of mind right now to be honest. PURE JOY AND RELIEF.

I am having such a chilled time on placement at the moment in the gastro department. The team are so nice, and I think it’s been one of my favourite medical school placements so far – not having to be in clinics, or go back home to revise, has meant that I’ve had a lot more free time to just relax and enjoy my final weeks in uni-land with my friends.

Highlights so far:

  • Slowly winning over my registrar, who initially ignored me during ward rounds, but now asks me to join the team for lunch and coffee breaks. She even told me that I would be a great F1, and that really made my day.
  • Learning how to take bloods and blood cultures from PICC lines.
  • Taking bloods for a cryo (cryoglobulin) test. The blood bottle had to be warmed for this, and kept warm till it got to the lab, so I was given a coffee mug with SAND in it to keep it at the right temperature. My mad dash to pathology was definitely quite something…
  • Long chats with patients about the logistics of my multi-coloured braids, haha; oh if I had a pound for every time I was asked about my hair…
  • Running teaching sessions for module 4 (cardiology students!) I’ve done two so far, case presentations and Simman, and they were quite nerve-wracking because cardiology is something I’m definitely not confident in, but they went okay overall!

3 weeks done, 3 to go! 😀

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The Importance of Standing Up For What You Believe

After my elective in Cambodia last summer, I came back to uni for final year and found out that I had been unfairly branded a snitch. Now I am a lot of things, a self-proclaimed Goody Two Shoes and Suck-Up sometimes, yes, but one thing I most certainly am not is a snitch, so I thought it was about time I told my side of the story.

It all began July last year. We were preparing for year 4 exams and upcoming electives, so it was a pretty hectic time. One evening, while I was having dinner with my housemates, the topic of taking pictures on electives came up. I told my housemates how strongly against taking photos of little kids and patients in foreign countries I was, because this is something that is frequently done by people who travel overseas to volunteer, or by those on electives, and then these photos are usually posted on Instagram and Facebook.

I made the point that it wouldn’t be done in the UK, so it just shows disregard for “foreign” people, because the same rules on patient confidentiality, safeguarding and privacy should apply overseas. Ofcourse it also feeds into the perpetuating of negative stereotypes, as whole continents are often generalised, and it’s just quite unfair because in most cases, the people in these photos are not white. After saying all this to my housemates, I joked that I would go out of my way to privately message anyone who put such pictures up, to let them know all the points mentioned above – I was so sure it wouldn’t need to come to that. I was wrong.

Flash forward to a couple of weeks later, I was in Cambodia with Samirah, and I started noticing that people in my year were posting photos on Facebook and Instagram of newborn babies, little children and patients they had seen. It was really bad.

I decided to back myself and messaged a couple of people to let them know why it wasn’t okay. The responses I received varied from apologetic (these people took their posts down straightaway), to defensive (these people argued that they had gotten consent, which ofcourse I accepted and apologised for offence) to angry, and then to just plain mean. I won’t repeat the things I was told by the latter groups of people, but some of it was not very nice.

I spent a couple of days being a bit sad about how my actions had been misconstrued, as people were still continuing to post photos on social media. Then it was suggested that perhaps if the message was from an official source, like the medical school, people would take it more seriously, as ofcourse no one would want to risk disciplinary action.

This led to Samirah and I emailing our head of year and the elective leads at the medical school. We laid out all the concerns mentioned above, highlighted the point that we had had no lectures or talks on this issue before we set off for our electives, and suggested that the medical school send out an email to the year to let them know that it wasn’t okay.

I must emphasise that we DID NOT give any names, or take any screenshots, or fill out concern forms about anybody. This was something that the med school put pressure on us to do, as they argued that they could not take action without evidence, but we were pretty adamant that it was unfair to scapegoat people. AND I AM NO SNITCH.

The elective lead eventually sent out this email to the year:

Email

Not going to lie, I saw it and got a bit teary. They listened to us!!!!

Moving forward, Samirah and I were asked to do a talk to current elective students about the Dos and Don’ts of Photography whilst on elective, and this is a topic that has now been included in the elective curriculum for future years. YAY!

Anyway, the point of this post? Just because most people are doing something doesn’t make it okay. If you feel something is wrong, speak up and do something about it if you can. People might be mean and spread untrue stuff about you, but I’ve learnt that those are the people you really don’t need in your life anyway.

Finally, and most importantly: I AM NOT A SNITCH.

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End of Finals

I officially had my last exam of medical school on Tuesday and it still hasn’t really sunk in. I keep waking up and thinking that I need to revise – maybe the relief will be real when we get results in two weeks, AHHHHHH. It’s all in Your hands now, God!

The best part of finishing exams was getting surprised by The Keen One a.k.a. Kenny when I came out. She completely had me convinced that she couldn’t make it to my post exams celebrations, so it really was the best surprise ever!

And now I’m home for the next month, wooooo! Looking forward to sleeeeeeping and travelling over the next few weeks 😀

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The Night Before My Final Med School Exam

I have decided to stop revising.

I’ve reached the point where I’m like, if I don’t know it now it’s too late, you know? That, and the fact that I can’t take in any more knowledge. Enough.

So how do I feel? I’m not too sure actually.

I thought I would be feeling more nervous/scared/anxious for tomorrow but what I feel the most is eagerness to be done. Every part of me is tired and drained and I can’t wait for it all to be over. (And I’m writing this in faith, because I will pass first time, God willing!)

Instead of revising, I decided to cook. This may not seem like a big deal to you, dear reader, but for me it is, because one of my worst habits during exam season is forgetting to eat (sorry mum!). I just don’t get hungry – an example of this is me realising at 7pm today that all I’d had to eat all day was a slice of toast. Not good.

So I made a mini feast and had a proper meal for the first time in days:

I’m going to try and get an early-ish night, might even watch a film before bed??? Anything but revise; I’ve done all I can.

It has been a very long six years of medical school – here’s hoping I don’t start crying when the invigilators announce that the exam is over tomorrow. I’m very much a crier.

#prayforTai

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Medical School Finals – NO MORE OSCES.

Officially two thirds of the way through finals- four exams down, two to go!

Coincidentally, my 23rd and last ever OSCE of medical school (hopefully!) was exactly six years since my med school interview, how cray is that? Time has absolutely flown by, can’t wait to be DONE.

If I’m to be 100% honest, I found the OSCE pretty tough, and came out feeling like I had been well and truly kicked in the butt by it all. So I did what I do best when I’m sad- called Abs (my mother) and cried, and ordered Thai food, and alternated between wallowing and watching films in my room. It was not pretty at all.

But that’s in the past and done now. I woke up today with a brand new outlook on things- there’s no point in dwelling on stuff I can’t change, and I need to have faith that God is in control.

Feeling down about an exam not going your way is human ofcourse, but it’s important to remember that you’re most probably going to be harsher on yourself, and you probably did better than you think. Also, if everyone else found it hard, be optimistic about a low pass mark! However, if you don’t like talking to people about how they found it, THAT IS ALSO FINE.

In other news, I decided to take a very welcome break from revision today and I went to see Captain Marvel at the cinema. I thought it was brill and Brie Larson did a great job; even more hyped for End Game now!