I still have the page open because it might stop being real if I go off it, but it’s been over 12 hours later and it still hasn’t changed. Exam results have been released…

Year 1 Results

… I passed everything. Written papers, OSCEs, SSS, Portfolio and Analytical Review. HALLELUJAH!

I didn’t realise how scared I was of not passing until just before I opened my results. I was more anxious than last year, which makes no sense because there was no chance for retakes in foundation year, but it’s possible to retake assessments from year 1 onwards.

I guess I’ve always doubted whether or not I’m actually good enough to be on the course, as passing foundation year didn’t reassure me much. I now know how silly I was for not believing in myself or trusting God- His plans for my future are far greater than I could imagine; so far they’ve led me on the path of becoming a doctor, and I need to stop worrying about whether or not it will all work out. Jesus, take the wheel!

I feel like a massive weight has been lifted off my shoulders, and I can freely enjoy the rest of the summer holidays. From now on, I’ll try not to doubt myself so much, and to be more confident in my abilities. Note to future self: Philippians 4:13.

Finally, all I have to say is bring on Year 2! 🙂


Down With Negativity

Today was my Med exam and it sure was tough. Like, so tough that tears were shed, calls were made to our course director asking what will happen if we don’t get the 75% needed to move on to year 1, and a formal complaint is being drafted to send to the medical school. We found it hard because things we were told we didn’t need to know came up, and it was nothing like the mock exam, which had questions purely based on stuff we’d covered in lectures. It just sucked.

So as you can imagine, most of us are feeling quite low at the moment, and people are preparing themselves for the worst. I’m trying not to be negative or upset because that really accomplishes nothing. What’s the point in wallowing, feeling sorry for yourself, and wasting your energy worrying about something that’s already happened? I truly believe that everything happens for a reason, so I’m trusting in God because I know He has a plan for my life. Jeremiah 29:11 is my favourite Bible verse, and it is very appropriate right now. Jesus, take the wheel.

Here are my top tips for what to do when an exam doesn’t go smoothly;

– Try not to discuss answers afterwards with people, that’ll just lead to panic.
– Take down and put away any revision notes you might have around, you don’t need reminders of the exam.
– Try not to go through your notes as you put them away as again, that could cause panicking.
– Avoid talking to pessimistic, negative people. They will make you feel worse.
– Surround yourself with optimistic peeps instead. (Shout out to Starbucks Gal for being great, as always. I’m blessed to have her as a friend)
– Be positive and compose a ‘Reasons To Be Cheerful List.’ That should make you realise how a bad exam isn’t the end of the world.
– Take a break from revision for a bit. You’ll need a fresh mind before continuing with work, so why not watch a film or something?
– Finally, CHEER UP. You’ve probably not done as bad as you think.

Exams end next week so I will be going HAM with revision from tomorrow. I am now off to watch Pride & Prejudice (2005) to take my mind off things. Ahh, Mr Darcy…