To My Mother

There is a scene in Linklater’s deservedly acclaimed Boyhood, that reminds me of the day my mum left my father. The children are in the house, and the mother comes with back up to take them away from their abusive father, who tries to stop them from leaving.

I was 5 when I had to make the choice between my parents, and watching the scene took me back to that day. It was nearly 15 years ago and I still remember it so vividly- mum stood outside the house crying, my father begging us to stay with him, family members shouting at us to get in the car… It’s amazing how some memories never leave us, despite how long ago they happened.

I chose my mum that day, and if I had to choose again, it would still be my mum. This is to my mother, who inspired me to start reading as a child, as I initially picked up books to imitate her, but then developed my own love for them.

To my mother, who constantly told me that God has not given me a spirit of fear, which was great reassurance when I was 7 and scared of the dark. To this day, 2 Timothy 1:7 remains one of my favourite verses.

To my mother, who orders our favourite Chinese food when we’re not home to feel closer to us, who loves High School Musical because we do, who got Facebook and Snapchat when we went to university to be more involved in our lives, and who is always on my side, even when I’m wrong, in the biased way that parents are.

Happy Mother’s Day, Abs; 15 years later and I have no regrets.



End of Second Semester

I can’t believe how quickly it’s gone! I go home tomorrow and I’m actually sad to leave because I’ve had a great term. So different from the end of last semester when I couldn’t wait to go home because I’d had enough of exams and was feeling crappy. But this isn’t a post about last term’s low happiness levels. A lot of great things have happened this semester so here are some highlights;

– My first student house! Sure, there was some drama and it’s not exactly the most extravagant house, but we have somewhere to live next year and I’m glad.

– Getting a really good mark in my SSS presentation in January. I got full marks in the online diary part of it, and I have this blog to thank for that because making this has made me more confident with blogging.

– Becoming more involved with the youth group in church and making new friends 🙂

– Becoming more involved with societies in general, and joining new ones like Rock Climbing and KAOS, where I was able to meet and befriend some great people.

– Seeing Taylor Swift in concert! LOVE her.

– Visiting my sister in Oxford, which was very very fun. Oxford is beautiful and just to make you happy Ken, I’ll say I prefer it to Cambridge.

– How can I forget dislocating my shoulder and going to A&E? TOP bant. I was definitely more accident prone this term because remember when I overdid it in athletics and couldn’t walk for a while? Gooood times…

– Modelling and performing in the KAOS fashion show. I most definitely do not have the patience to be a model but I still had a great time and we raised over £1500!

– Performing in the Glee Showcase, which was the first time I’ve sang in public on my own without my sister. It was strange but it went really well and my solo performance of Céline Dion’s That’s The Way It Is won me the award of ‘Outstanding Soprano’ in the Glee Awards. The committee also said I was a “ray of sunshine” in the society for my “constant cheerfulness,” so that was really kind of them.

– Going to the LCR in clown makeup. I regret nothing.

– Getting a lovely end of year PBL report from my tutor, who said he loved the enthusiasm I brought to sessions and he also said he enjoyed my different approach to chairing, because it was fun and I was still very efficient. I nearly cried because of how nice he was and the final grade he gave me. Yeah, I’m such a sap.

And so so much more, it’s been such a good term! One of the best things about it has been spending time with and getting closer with my flatmates, as that was one of the things I was determined to do at the start of term. So yay for perseverance and not giving up! Not everyone will want to be my friend (and that’s okay), so it’s better to make an effort for those who do, and not waste time being sad about those who don’t.

Just got back from my last lecture of the year because all I have after Easter is revision and two exams. My next lecture will be when I get into year 1, by God’s grace! It’s all getting so real now… eeeeeeeeep. I plan to start revising properly a week after I get home because I want to spend the first week catching up with friends and just doing nothing to be honest. So many people to see and I can’t wait to see them all! Exciting times ahead 🙂


The Start of Something New

Happy new year! How do you do, 2014? It’s nice to meet you. First things first, I’m not a fan of the saying, ‘New year, new me.’ This is because I don’t think that people who believe they can completely change who they were the year before are being very realistic, as that would be quite a difficult feat. I’d say ‘New year, improved version of me’ is more appropriate but hey, that’s just my opinion.

Anyhowzers 2013 had its ups and downs but I enjoyed it and grew a lot as a person, (allow the cringe, okay?) and I’m looking forward to what 2014 has in store for me. Here are the resolutions I’ve come up with so far:

1) Make more time to read my Bible, pray and spend more time with God.

2) Don’t be afraid to try new things. I’ve lived in such a protected, sheltered bubble all my life and I think I need to branch out. So I will do something new every month, I’ve decided. Legal things, ofcourse, so any suggestions would be appreciated.

3) Speak NOW. I won’t make the mistake of being too late again; 2014 will be the year of no regrets. (Inspired by the wise words of Taylor Swift )

4) Start saving money more. It might be a good idea to cut down on the taxis…

5) Try and do a blog post every week.

And that’s all I can think of for now. They’re a good start!

Spent new year’s eve in church as per, and it was a lovely, lively service. I may be a bit biased because I’ve never celebrated new year’s eve anywhere else, but it really is the best place to be! I always feel so at home in church. The pastor’s message focused on Haggai 1:13 and four words to remember, “… I am with you,” declares the Lord. Praying that God will continue to guide me this year. So yeah, here’s to 2014!

(P.S. If you were wondering the answer is yes, the title of this post IS a reference to a song from High School Musical. Troy and Gabriella sing it during karaoke when they meet on new year’s eve and I thought it was appropriate 🙂 My love for HSM has made it into 2014, it seems.)